In this case study we will see:
- A need-based blending of different forms of ministry to produce a strong healing.
- That by itself, inner peace is not a reliable enough indicator to signify completed healing.
- That things like counseling and mentoring can play an important role in finding freedom.
- That freedom gained through inner healing absolutely must be cemented into place through a close, ongoing walk with God.
The situationPaul (not his real name) had lived through a lifetime of suffering and sin that came to a head one day when he “was ready to put a gun to my head and blow my brains out.” I reached out to him after our church referred him to us. Paul was in his late forties and was suffering from:
- Pain from a childhood of sexual and verbal abuse
- Bedwetting (as a child)
- Missing memories from childhood
- Drug and alcohol abuse
- Anxiety disorder
- Severe depression
- Severe migraines
- Self-harm: cutting himself
- Repressed anger and rage
- Multiple suicide attempts
- Inability to hold a job
- Symptoms of bipolar and eating disorders
- A previous divorce
- The death of his first child at nine months gestation
- Sexual immorality
- Verbal abuse
- Bitterness and unforgiveness
- No focus on God
Day one: deliverancePaul’s deliverance ministry focused on forgiveness, self-protection, soul ties, and confession of sin. It was the single most powerful deliverance ministry I have ever seen. God’s presence was tangible. When we reached the final step where we sent out all of the demons we had dealt that day, God’s presence came on with unmistakable strength and love. I had a clear sense that God was saying, “I’m doing this, and I’m getting things that you missed.” It was absolutely beautiful. After the deliverance, Paul felt perfect peace. That night, before he spoke a word, his wife and son said they could see that he was a different person.
Day two: Theophostics and the broken soulThe next morning, Paul still felt perfect peace. When we began looking for the first alternate personality, Paul’s head immediately dropped and he started shaking. He became a puddle of grief. I asked who I was talking to, and through tear-stained, bloodshot eyes, he pointed to his chest and said “Paul.” This was not an alternate; it was the Paul I knew. He had a painful inner wound of emotional insecurity toward the Lord. It was from watching his wife endure decades of life-threatening illnesses. She was a diabetic, and amputee, a heart patient, and a dialysis patient. Paul loved his wife like few people I’ve known, and watching her suffer had broken his heart. He had an unvoiced problem of wondering why God had allowed her to suffer so much. God had put his finger on the wound because he knew that Paul had to trust him if he were to be healed. Paul had never talked about it to God; he was afraid to. But God knew and decided to heal it. Using some techniques from Theophostic Prayer Ministry, Paul held his emotions up to the Lord, and I asked God what he wanted to tell Paul. Instantly, the grief stopped. It happened so fast that it startled me. I asked, “What happened?” God told him that he had everything under control. That it! I could have told Paul the same thing, and it would have had no effect on him. But God is different; when he speaks, he creates. When God spoke to Paul’s heart, it took a micro-second to create an absolute assurance that he didn’t need to worry. Paul didn’t learn to trust God in that instant; God gave him trust, in an instant. It never left him. This is an example of an “ordinary miracle” that happens in Theophostic Prayer Ministry every day.
The first alternate personalityWe started again looking for an alternate, and once more Paul’s head dropped. This time his leg began to jump, and his whole body shook. With his right fist, he acted like he was trying to cut his left arm. This was an alternate named David who was responsible for suicide attempts and cutting. He carried pain from Paul’s parents fighting in his childhood, sexual abuse, and the death of Paul’s first son. I had no more begun talking to David when it happened again. His head dropped, he began to shake, and feigned cutting his arm. Then I heard the voice of a toddler say, “Paul angry.” He was about 18 months old, didn’t know his name, and was controlled by David. He was responsible for stealing, greed, and low self-image. He said he needed to be loved and cared for, and he wanted to die. He was behind multiple suicide attempts. He was afraid to talk to other people because he had been hurt so many times before. Both David and the toddler accepted Christ as Savior, repented of their behavior, and gave Jesus their pain. (Toddler alters understand adult concepts.) They were then both at peace and said they were ready to be fused and integrated.
Other alternatesThe next day we found several more alternates including three named Pain, Lonely, and Regret. Their ages ranged from toddler to adult. Pain had extreme anger from Paul having been raped by his relatives, and from losing his first child. Pain hated God and was confused about why these things had happened to him. His focus was anger, but it didn’t take long for Pain to realize that Jesus could do a much better job of dealing with the people who hurt him than he could by hanging on to his anger. Soon, he was willing to forgive. Lonely and Regret carried grief from a family death and difficulties in childhood. Lonely was the alternate that had eaten his own feces. He surfaced a new memory. Paul never knew why he had eaten his feces. Lonely explained that he hadn’t been fed, and was desperately hungry. These alternates received Christ, gave their pain to Jesus, and received new names that stood for their new lives in Christ. They quickly stabilized and said they were ready to be fused with Paul. By the time we reached the end of the third day, Paul was a new person. This included dealing with several demons that took credit for Paul’s addictions, anger, emotional withdrawal, depression, and more.
Walking out the healingPaul had about two months of total life change. He sought God without reserve and became strong. He became the spiritual leader for his family and a much-needed source of stability. Then we learned that Paul had never been taught how to handle addictive substances as a recovering addict. A relative visited, and Paul drank what he thought was a small amount of beer – a little over two six packs. This was about a third of the amount of his regular drinking in his earlier life, so he thought nothing of it. But the alcohol took over and Paul took a nosedive. The next thing he remembered was finding a bottle of rubbing alcohol in his hand that he was about to drink. It could have killed him. Paul and his family were devastated. Among other things, I strongly encouraged Paul to get back into his flow with God. Within a week or two he was back to his former strength. Then he stumbled one more time. Through both struggles, we brought people into Paul’s life who understood recovery from addictions. In the end, it was his new-found relationship with God that strengthened and became his stability. Paul started Theophostic Prayer Ministry after his second stumble. He has been on solid footing ever since. A note about Theophostics: The broken soul deals with the damage from alternates and their demonic entanglement. But over a lifetime with a broken soul, the core soul is injured too. TPM picks up where healing alternates leaves off, healing the core soul. We refer all of our broken soul counselees to Theophostic Prayer Ministry.
Today …A little over two years after Paul received his freedom, his wife lost her battle with heart disease. She was saved during one of our initial meetings. From there, I witnessed two years of God rebuilding her heart and their marriage. I was honored to tell her story at the funeral. It was a celebration. Because of the impact that freedom ministry had on their lives, the first song played at her funeral was, “The Hurt and The Healer.” She is in heaven today because instead of reaching for a gun, Paul picked up the phone and reached for help. What he found, forever changed him and his family. Freedom ministry did what it’s designed to do in Paul’s life – get him healthy, on solid ground, and into a strong relationship with the Lord through which he can now handle life. Paul is an overcomer and a friend. He is a shining witness of God’s love and power to deliver in a world that includes multitudes of people who are like he once was, all needing to understand the amazing transformation found in God’s power to heal.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all.